I’m 22 years old and I don’t know what to do with my life. But that’s not too big of an issue, I feel like a lot of people experience this at some point or another. But this isn’t all about career moves and finishing my undergrad. There’s so much more to it. For as long as I can remember I have been the quiet girl who shut everybody out. When I was little if I ever felt the need to cry I would lock myself in the restroom because I didn’t want anybody to see me. I thought it made me weak. But now I’m starting to think all that crying by myself and bottling my emotions was such a bad decision. I feel weaker than ever these days and I just don’t know what to do to make me happy. I honestly don’t know if I’ve ever been happy, not like the whole day kind but the kind where at the end of the day you are excited for what you are doing and happy about more things than not. I want that in my life. I want to know even when I screw up or do something bad that there is still a pretty picture waiting for me. I don’t know what I want or how I’m gonna achieve it but maybe by writing it all down I can get a sense of who I am and figure it all out.